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On Working :

That morning I ran once more and it felt good. I have never run early within the morning for fairly some time. 

No matter issues and ache I had had been all forgotten through the run, it was simply working bliss. The morning mist, the playlist, the chilly, all simply excellent. I am unable to consider it was that particular. I began working at 7 am and ended the run by 8 am when it began getting hotter. I ended the run with this song.

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On Taking a Stroll Alone and Books :

The day earlier than I walked alone on the mall after assembly up for espresso with Miss Chin. Solely managed to get a 5 km indoor stroll that day. 

I purchased 2 books: Past Order by Jordan Peterson and A Transient Information to Philosophical Classics by James M Russell. I seen that there weren’t that many feminine philosophers or books written by ladies writers on subjects that I need to learn – and I ponder why that’s? In A Transient Information to Philosophical Classics, there are introductions to 66 of “probably the most thought-provoking books ever written” and amongst that, solely 6 had been written by ladies: Ayn Rand, Tove Jansson, Emma Goldman, Naomi Wolf, Luce Irigaray, and Julia Kristeva. 

I have never completed studying To Paradise by Hanya Yanagihara but, it has been greater than a month. I began early in April throughout Ramadhan and I loved the slow-reading course of each time I really feel like studying it. I’m now in chapter 3, the ultimate story primarily based in a dystopian world about 100 years from now (and I do not like studying a few dystopian world as a result of it provides me anxiousness).

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On Working Throughout PMS :

I feel it is honest to say that the one particular person that may determine whether or not they can work throughout PMS is the particular person enduring the section as a result of everybody has a unique stage of ache and phases. For me, generally the cramps are so dangerous, my face winces for having to carry within the ache, and generally my migraines are as dangerous as feeling like somebody is hammering my head whereas having to deal with a job, not solely that, generally it isn’t solely the cramps and the migraine, there are few extra different worst signs to need to cope with together with that: just like the painful bloat, or the swelling in sure areas, nausea or fatigue. 

I imply, aren’t all of us superhuman for having to cope with this as a daughter, a pupil, a employee, or a mom. We won’t merely ask for a ‘relaxation’ each time we’re in ache, we most likely really feel ashamed to even voice out about this and we have now to cope with this, for many of our lives, each single month. Think about that. 2 weeks of relaxation, and a couple of extra weeks of ache – each month. 

Our our bodies are constructed in a different way. Sure, it’s positively not as ‘bodily’ robust as males, however take a look at how a lot ache can we ladies endure all through our lives. The month-to-month ache, the being pregnant section, the childbirth, and the menopause. 

We’re superhuman.

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Raya :

Like all of my raya, it was largely an anxiety-filled celebration filled with dramas and crowds. We went again to Raub, then Pekan, Kuantan then Nilai. Every week of meals and other people. Sofi fell sick quickly after, she had a very dangerous loud cough with phlegm and chilly, a minor fever. However just for every week, then she recovered – fairly quick. I do not know whether or not this was a assist, however we gave her pure honey 3 occasions a day when she was sick. It labored, all the time. 

Oh sure, I posted a Raya reel on my personal IG. Made a private IG so I might nonetheless publish my older model of obnoxious selfies and private photographs (like lovely meals – haha). The older I get, the extra self-conscious I get about every little thing so I created one other IG simply purely to self-indulge.

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On Going to KLIF :

I did not determine on going till the final minute. Why? As a result of it was positioned in the midst of the town middle throughout a heatwave, I needed to stroll within the warmth if I need to solely take MRT (the paths Google Maps shared weren’t totally dependable), and it was my 2nd day of interval. 

However, one way or the other, I purchased the ticket and I used to be there on the primary day. Fortunately, I did not get any complications till a lot later within the night. 

In my thoughts, I wished to spend time there, get inspiration, meet like-minded individuals, and assist different artists or something equal to that. However apparently, I am nonetheless in my depressive mode – I did not really feel like something had modified in any respect. I simply felt outdated and I felt like I moderately spend time studying someplace silent, good, and chilly. I moderately write and hearken to poetry music. I moderately not mingle with the crowds. 

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On Annoyance :

It has been 12 days for the reason that alarm goes off (most likely at one of many factories close to my home). 12 days of the sound of the alarm repeating all through the entire day, nonstop.

I am unable to wait, for somebody to purchase this home. 

I am unable to wait to depart. 

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On the Reminiscence of Scent :

Have you learnt you could hold reminiscences in perfume? Typically I stroll in crowds, my nostril captures a odor that I used to know, and I bear in mind these reminiscences removed from my previous. Then I’m going to Sephora and requested the vendor to offer me a odor from a sure tester fragrance. I hold the fragranced skinny paper as my bookmark as a result of what else can I hold aside from the reminiscences?