September 28, 2023


Make Some Fun

Little Issues 260 : Hi there Late 30s

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What does being in my late-30s means for me?

Wrinkles begin exhibiting up. Not have grownup zits. My physique aches once I get up within the morning. Mommy denims. Cozy free garments. Scars of maturity and motherhood. Fixed exhaustion or random nervousness, you choose. Begin counting my good days. No extra late night time, however howdy silent early mornings. I say ‘OK’ to myself so much. Additionally, dietary supplements. Worries about not shifting sufficient, however select to not transfer anyway.  

These doubts, that silence. It by no means goes away okay. 

However you select to go on as a result of you could have larger duties now. You stroll ahead one step at a time. Materials issues do not excite you that a lot, and you start to really feel fearful of shedding the issues that you have already got. Every part continues to be arduous, however you could have accepted them as a part of life. Higher at regulating my feelings, nonetheless do some kind of ‘wholesome’ on-line stalking, and nonetheless have silly crushes on sure actors. Studying one thing new turning into a little bit of a problem, no pals (*like severely, why am I like this), and I get lonely at instances, however I realized to spend my time alone on my own these days: like going out to the film alone (who would have thought that consuming sizzling americano in a film is a bliss? Oh olden days), spend time at cafes doing distant work, spend time at a ebook retailer, and so on. 

, I nonetheless weighed the identical as I did 10 years in the past, however my physique determine modified. Sure, I bought via a being pregnant a number of years again and it did change me. I really feel like I’m not in the identical physique, but I’m and these adjustments are regular processes in life. It is bizarre and regular on the similar time. 

This morning, I missed my sahur (as a result of final night time Sofi cried so many instances). So technically, I did not eat for round 24 hours, however I survived. At present :

  • I utilized to many tasks on Behance, providing my companies. If solely I may get myself an agent to do that bidding for me. I actually don’t love coping with people :F
  • I can not deal with doing something. I can not write, I attempted (that is why I attempted scripting this at night time).
  • I completed 20% of my Figma essential class by Daniel Scott. Properly, the primary 20% is fairly primary, simply to refresh my reminiscence, we’ll see if I can proceed one other 20% tomorrow. 
  • Sofi completed her fifth Kumon ebook this month. 
  • I learn the primary chapter of To Paradise after my 30 minutes nap earlier than Asar. 
  • I weighed 49.9 kg at the moment. Then I berbuka, and I gained the 0.5g again. 

Anyway, we assumed that the muscle groups on my physique from 10 years in the past, had been changed by all these amassed fat – in order that’s why I am extra flabby now. Why else would I nonetheless weigh the identical however with a special determine kan. I suppose I was ‘leaner’ as a result of I used to run. Dulu boleh la lari hari2, bese lah org2 heartbroken. Mihh. Now I do not as a result of I am too demotivated to go so – I get a migraine once I run in daylight and I’ve a whole bunch extra excuses to throw.

Okay, I believe I reached my writing quota this month. I am experimenting with 8 posts per 30 days, so at the very least 2 posts per week. 

Kudos for the writing follow, good night time, and Salam Ramdhon

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